"dont you weep,
there is nothing, as easy, as lucky, or free" -bright eyes

life moves on but right now, i just feel really crappy. i have never done so badly in my life. accounting is definately not my thing but i dont want to give up. it's just depressing.

i feel like i give up really easily in life. when something does not go my way, i just give up. it's so easy. like when i used to play violin, i was pretty ok for a beginner when i was in 8th grade. then...i just gave up cause i didnt have private lessons like the other kids and my mom told me how badly i played. whats the point when i sucked right? i love music, i love violin, but i never believed in myself. i stopped practicing. i feel like i want to stop practicing right now but i know i will regret this. i'm so weak, its ridiculous. i hate myself for being so weak. i wish i wasnt so sensitive. why do i take everything so seriously. why cant i ever take a joke. why can't i find a major i like. why can't i be good at something in life.

ok, now that all the meladrama has left me, im going to run off this frustration.
sigh.